dreams of a liar

As she grew to hate her loved ones, she also found hate in herself.
as i rose to grab her by the wings, she flew higher.
her mother held her tight for the first time and yet she still lied.
father raped her emotions and still she loved him to bits.
all the men in her life where imaginary, as they kept disappearing without a trace.
i love her big brown eyes but she never took note of mine.
as she lied and cheated her way up i felt pain for the day she'd find me!
i lost control of her life and took over mine.
i cried for her but never prayed.
she dreamed of being successful, but never famous.
her "FRIENDS" never took note till it was too late to save her.
her companions knew her true being but some are still to find her.
pain and agony became her home,
as lost as she was i still loved her to bits.
she loved neither herself nor the people surrounding her or those within her.
as confused as she where, was and is she believed in her dreams.
no one could ever destroy them, not even Iraq.
she found comfort in her lies and they broke her even faster.
her virginity not lost by choice, but took by force on the 18th of january 2008,
couldn't have destroyed her even more.
being raped during her most prepared year, matric dance and university on the way that did not only kill her soul but her dreams.
her parents tried but failed, not even professionals could help her BUT
only ME could save her.
she discover a new identity, one that everyone could except and not feel pity for her.
ALICE a friend of mine on the road of being a companion digged her way to the true person that Rose within her and now they can.
her new identity came with a lot of misfortune, she lost her mother, her father, to be modest she lost everyone, except who she truly is.......
a child born to save a legacy, a queen of many heart and light in many dark days.



I AM A TRUE CHILD OF AFRICA AND MY DREAMS WILL COME TRUE.
I AM A YOUNG, GIFTED AND BLACK SOUTH AFRICAN LADY WITH A DREAM!
I AM MATEMA ROSE CASSANRA MONGATANE THE FIRST GIRL CHILD OF LUCAS AND KGABO MONGATANE!